Thought

You know I was just sitting here thinking about an old friend from my
school days that I've gotten back in contact with over the last year
while I was thinking back on all that's happened this year. It struck
me that things that happened while we were in school - this spring
will mark 10 years since we graduated - still hurt her today. Isn't it
sad that things so very long ago - sometimes decades - still hurt us
because we won't let them go? And I'm not talking stuff like death,
I'm merely talking about the way someone treated you or someone you
were close to. I received my share of the bullying and then some - and
yet it seems to have affected her more than me! She told me some of
the stuff that was said and done to me still hurt her today. What do
you say to something like that? Let it go? Get over it? Both sound
cold.
The honest truth is much simpler. Life - and the situations we face
while living it - make us who we are. All the bullying, taunting,
harassing, name calling, and physical torments I took made me a
stronger adult. However, I'm not saying that it was easy growing up;
it made for a very painful childhood, and a very lonesome one at that.
But it taught me how to be self-reliant in a world where it's
dog-eat-dog.
The stuff that still hurts me today is much more personal - the way my
family (for the most part) continues to treat me, the way some
"friends" treat me, etc. I can't live in the past, I realized this
long ago. The hardest part of that is letting go of those that have
died that meant so much to me, but even that is necessary to move on
and be a happy, successful person. Also, for all the effort in me, and
if it COULD be successful I would die trying, all the holding on in me
wouldn't be enough to bring my beloved Mom back. Let me tell you one
thing. I wouldn't want my Mom here anyways right now. The way this
world has turned in the nearly 7 years since Mom died hasn't been
pretty. I wouldn't have wanted her to see the terrorist attacks that
have happened across the world and on our home soil. I wouldn't have
wanted her to see the current state of world affairs, sure to remind
her of a war she grew up watching on tv. And surely I wouldn't want to
hear her rambling how this current administration reminds her of one
she remembered from "back in the day."
So here's my thought for the day. What are you doing with your life?
Are you so stuck in the past that your life seems to be going nowhere?
Or are you plucking ahead, periodically filing the past in its own
"filing cabinet" and moving forward, even if it's just an inch? Just a
thought, and thanks Walter for letting me steal your writing voice for
a minute LOL.

Good News

Got a job yesterday!!

 

Just dropping a note to let ya'll know.

 

Yo 7, sorry I got dc'd when we last talked, welcome to my life!

 

Now this doesn't mean I'll be back blogging full-time anytime soon, but perhaps I'll be writing on my lunch break and maybe there's a strong enough wifi connection nearby for me to send it on! So who knows, I might be back, I might not. I'll know more later. I don't even start for a couple weeks yet apparently. But it's a job!

A Note

Just dropping a quick note on my blog so everyone can see I'm still alive... stressed out, but alive.

 

I hope ya'll are doing well and enjoy the holidays. For those like me without any family really to speak of, don't cry, gather with yer neighbors and laugh at their kids opening presents. That's what I'm going to do!

 

And btw, thanx cuz fer da xmas card, u an Debbie the only 2 that remembered me snail this year. Those kids are getting big, and they look more like twins! lol...

 

Take care folks, and I'll try to blog soon, but my pda connection is unstable and the desktop has to be IN the living room window to get a signal, not even the dining room window will work! And the pda's inbox proggie won't load, so *grumble* another day in the life of me!

 

Lynx/Sharon

 

PS: Walter, Christmas, xmas, same diff, some of us just too lazy, that's all! No disrespect, even tho me n yer faith have our disagreements, still believe the core, just there's issues! lol

 

Cheryl: Yes I'm alive! hugs, email works best! (and that goes for all of you!)

 

ktlang, Karen B (az): ty but Karen, yours was blank! Didn't load up for some reason, but thought counts, ty. KT, email me!

Once a Creep, ALWAYS a Creep

Some of you know in my distant past I was once friends with someone who everyone warned me was a perv. Well, they were right. A few years later, he was arrested for indecent liberties with a minor under 14. YUCK!! Well, knowing how close he lives to most of my family, I tend to keep an eye on him via the sex offenders database now and then. And I can tell you just in the last few years he's been locked up at least 3 times. And apparently the one conviction wasn't it, there was another! Though the webpage I found THAT out on I can't find again, so it could easily be more. This time he's not just in county jail, they moved him up to the bigger prison up the road a bit... which tells me either he got another conviction or he was prowling and broke rules of his probation. And to think, I used to spend time with this creep!! Bleh, but even when I knew him, much as I thought he was ok, I also had eerie feelings about him, like something wasn't right. This gut instinct probably saved my rear as the only time I saw him was while I was at work.
This is my point today. If your guts are telling you something's not right with a person, it's probably right. I can't count how many times something just didn't feel right and it was right - or how many times I regretted not listening to it later on! Ha, if I'd listened to my gut I'd never left home! But if I hadn't, I couldn't be where I am now either... oh well! Just please, friends, listen to your intuition, it's right more often than your brain is! And remember, once a perv, always a perv. And for those of you in the US, make use of Megan's Law, check your local sex offender registry, regardless of where you live! This guy was a very popular radio DJ... They're everywhere, don't go after them, just keep away from them, especially your children.
In other news, yes folks I still live, now and then. Things are extremely stressful right now but on a wing and a prayer we just might make it. I remain hopeful even as my brain starts to loose optimism. I have no other choice though, hope and faith are what I have no matter what. The cats are doing fine, I actually have two sunbaking cats right now LOL, well Curzon's KINDA sunbaking, not much of him is in the sunspot. Nimbus on the other hand, all but his head and the paw his head is resting on is in the sun. Silly cats, you'd think with all that fur they wouldn't need to sunbake, but they love it. Jadzia tried to crawl under the covers with me last night but couldn't take my tossing and turning. But that's what she gets for trying to sleep right next to my feet!
I hope this blog finds everyone well and I will see you all back on a regular basis as soon as possible. Wish me luck that I get this job!

(Just a side note, just found a webpage with the info, he offended again! He's locked up until 2015! Yuck yuck yuck, but at least kids will be a little safer now!)

Modification to yesterday's blog

I was apparently off a little bit about the teacher and the Mohammed bear. I apologize if I was wrong, but it was a good point anyways. If I was right the first time, sorry too, I keep only getting brief glimpses at news on tv lol.

Update, Opinions, News...

Ahhh, it feels good to be human again. After nearly a week of being very sick, it feels good to be fever-free and healthy enough to sip on a (caffeine-free) Pepsi. My fever broke last night, finally coming under 100 degrees around dinnertime, and normal by midnight. So of course I'm thoroughly estatic. But I still have a sore throat (which happens to me every time I get a cold, my glands swell up towards the end), and my cough will soon go away too. But even my sore neck from having to sleep all sorts of ways (or try to sleep at least) for three days is pretty much gone too. I took a long hot soak this morning to treat my body for enduring the bone-biting cold chills and the sweating, but seeing as the mucus is breaking up, I'm sneezing (which seems to be normal for me LOL), and I have the random bout of ice cold hands, I seem to be 90% normal finally!
Of course, my PDA had to act up during my bout with this friggin cold. I think it's fussing with me because I don't turn it on before I unplug the power supply from it. I did a test today, turning it on before I unplugged it from the charger, and it cooperated, but when I don't (which is my habit), it tries to tell me I only have 25% of my battery charge left when I'd just taken it off the charger! And this isn't the smaller battery I gripe about all the time either, this is my master battery that under normal conditions would probably go a whole day without needing charged. But if this is what is going on, it might also explain some of the battery issues I've had with the other battery as well. I'm not too worried about this right now, I have much bigger items on my plate.
Alright, now some news.
Did any of you watch CNN and see that machine catch fire on the hockey rink? I only caught a glimpse of it... Was a "coming up next" thing that I ended up missing the whole story about, but I THINK they said "near Philadelphia" so I have to assume it was on the local professional hockey team's rink. What a place to have a fire!
And a couple of things I wanted to talk about for a while but haven't as I've been sick and offline so much lately.
So Hillary's NOT the front runner in Iowa now (that's the first state that holds primary elections in the US for you international readers, though they do their elections by caucus, not polling). And Giulanni is in trouble too... I'm not sure which is more frightening, President Hillary Clinton or President Barack Obama. And now Republican candidate Mike Huckabee has said he wants to abolish the IRS. Ok fine, we all would like to get rid of taxes. But, Mr. Huckabee, how do you plan to keep our airspace secure, fix our federal roads and bridges, help out after natural disasters, and all of those other things our tax dollars pay for that few of us mind paying for? I'd much rather pay taxes than have to worry every time I am in a car driving over a bridge or every time I fly. And let's not forget, it's OUR tax dollars that pays for wars. I hate to stretch the facts here, but I think it's quite clear that cutting taxes altogether would strip us of our military therefore making everyone come home, overwhelming our economy and with Osama still loose and Al-Qaida still alive, we'd be MUCH less safe than we were even on the day before September 11. You're in my vomit bag, Mr. Huckabee, right with Obama and Clinton. Ignorance, stupidity, and greed belong there.
And what's with this British teacher that almost got 30 lashes for letting her student in Sudan name their teddy bear Mohammed? I'm going to take a wee different angle than you might expect here, because this is a CHILD we are talking about. Kids generally don't name their bears something as a taunt. It's usually something that means something to them. So for a child to want to name their bear Mohammed likely wasn't making fun of the prophet. It'd be like a little American girl naming her doll "baby Jesus." It's love and adoration, not taunting.
Is it almost over for former border patrol agents Ramos and Campeon? Could it possibly be true that they soon may get a second - and fair - trial? Or even better, released and not tried a second time? A drug dealer crossed our border illegally with drugs, and wouldn't stop for them - and I'm sure they're bilingual and spoke to this person in both languages - so they made him stop. THEY DID THEIR JOB. So why are they in prison serving 10 years - in SOLITARY CONFINEMENT? Why? This drug dealer should be in prison for life for all the crimes he committed and all the trauma he's brought upon these two agents. One of the agent's wife came out of today's hearing hopeful, and for her husband and his fellow agent's sake, I hope she's right. It's time they're free, and to be free by Christmas would be the best present we could give them now.
So, what have I been up to lately?
1. I started a cross-stitch scale football field. Each square is one yard, to make it easy. I've got one endzone done almost, it will be once I sit down with it again, but I didn't have the energy this week.
2. I played a few PDA games I haven't played in a long time. I have one game that I've gotten to level 76 and I haven't gotten to 10,000 points yet! It's a very low point, high strategy game.
3. I worked a day, then had job apparently fall through. The poor woman had issues just collapse in on her at once. I'm going to get an update soon one way or another. I'd love to get back into that job.
4. I did 2 essential loads of laundry day before my cold struck.
5. I dealt with first ice of season by staying indoors because it was just too cold. Turns out I should've stayed in today too as it was windy and even colder! But luckily I'd only gone out to take out the trash, put an envelope in the mail and check my mail all at once, so it wasn't too bad, plus I had on my better half's new (well, rescued) parka, so I was more than adequately protected from the bone-biting wind, which at times gusted over 40mph. Luckily as well, all the stuff is on the south side of the building, and the winds were very stiffly out of the north, so I was sheltered from the worst of the wind!
So that's what's been on my mind and going on lately, sorry for the kind of wandering in the email, but between the coughing and combining drafts of emails, I think it's understandable.

Still here - sorta

Just putting a note out that I'm ok for the most part. Please take care of yourselves.