Update

Hey folks, just saying hi, I'm on, so I thought I should :) I'm
currently working on ya'lls surprise... though only one asked what it
was :P I'm freezing my rear end off here, and of course, the colder I
get, the hungrier I am, and that's not where I need to be right now.
But, I'm hopeful this winter doesn't last too long and look forward to
March 1, when all the holidays/birthdays/death-iversaries are done.
I'm tired of being sad and gloomy this time of year, but every holiday
jingle only brings back the emotions. They say grieving has no time
schedule, but isn't nearly 7 years enough? Or maybe the death in my
inner circle is slowing me down a bit... I'm tired of the tears,
depression, and just gloom. I want to feel happy again during the
holidays. I want to reclaim that... but no matter what I do, no matter
what I say, something always comes along to ruin it. I was doing so
well last year, turkey day and xmas went fine... but my birthday was
ruined and thus started the grieving all over again. Perhaps someday
the crying will be done, but I have the feeling that'll be the day
when either I'm the last one or it's my turn to go. *sigh* welcome to
my life. I'd love to go a decade without someone close to me dying,
but it ain't happened yet, and this decade is already turning worse
than the last two! But perhaps this means the rest is clear sailing? I
hope!!!!! Anyways, later ya'll.