Update to Previous Blog and More

Well, with some tinkering I got this new program to work ok. I decided to set the email program up to only download the first 10 lines of an email (as I plan to still use the mobile IE to read and delete email) to speed it up. But sending is my main prerequisite, and it seems to be working well.
There is word that Microsoft is offering to buy Yahoo for nearly $45mil (yes, I'm serious). Let's see, if this happens, you still won't be able to upload your email on your Microsoft OS pda (as this requires POP access, which Microsoft charges for and Yahoo requires you use their program which takes up a minimum of 4mb on your pda). You still won't get your email for a day or two, if at all, and now your emails will have twice as much spam!! I'm thinking about switching my yahoo and hotmail accounts to my old aol or my aimmail account! Sheesh, most are already only spamboxes, and if I didn't depend on my gmail so much and need to keep it free of massive emailings, I might just finish the transition. But I don't know, maybe it'd make more sense to have my survey sites on gmail also (I'm on 4 different sites, one sends to gmail, two to yahoo, and one to hotmail, based upon when I joined them). I've been contemplating combining them for ages, but I don't to suddenly be overwhelmed with emails, as with the other ones, I can easily ignore until I can actually take care of them.
I have all my projects done, except my cross-stitched football field as I have put it aside for now. I made a basic hook that I made a couple dozen of to secure to a blank sheet of canvas to hang all my cross-stitch threads on so they're not all folded up and stuffed in a little box. So now I'm working on a few small cross-stitch patterns (one at a time of course), to stitch to a piece of felt then onto a bag I made a long time ago to use for a mini-purse and pda bag. I started the actual work today on a smiley face, but without the text. I haven't decided if I might add a banner on each side later, as I need to get my squares done first and see how things will fit as my bag size is set.
Surprisingly, the cats have been staying out of all my thread, though I have it scattered around the couch and table right now. Curzon's sacked out on the desk chair right now, oblivious to ANYTHING going on (me kicking the chair didn't even stir him lol), Jadzia's snoozing on the other side of the couch from me, and Nimbus is reading the paper by osmosis on the loveseat (if ANY creature is a reader by osmosis, it's him, he's always so serious, even watching the news intently).
We decided last night was treat night, ordering in dinner (the roommate was ordering anyways so we just jumped in) getting ourselves a couple mushroom cheeseburgers which were just so juicy and delicious that we just couldn't help but devour them (even me, who'd just eaten not an hour or so earlier). What we're going to do for tomorrow's game, I don't know. There's plans to go upstairs and watch the game, but if I'm feeling tomorrow like I am tonight, I won't be up there too much. I'm not trying to be anti-social, I'm just not FEELING very social and jolly. It's kinda hard to be that way when things are tight and the job market is even more tight. Oh if I could go back and change things... But I wouldn't change much, even if I could. When I left home, I would've taken Mom with me if I'd known better, spent my money wiser, not gotten that second credit card, but all in all, I'd still done everything, as if any of it changed, I'd be without the cats and the love of my life.
I've had several people ask me if arguments destroyed my previous relationships or if I was just too stubborn, as they were going through tough times themselves. As I explained to them, stubbornness leads to arguments, but when itmatters most, you must stick to your guns, even if it means the end of the relationship. Take the last serious relationship I was in before I left home. I cannot and WILL NOT be forced to do anything I do not want to do, and trying to do so will cause hell for you, as that poor sucker found out. He soon found himself devoid of many friends (as we had many mutual friends) and banned out of the store I was working in (can't harass someone at work and not expect that). I won't go into further details, but know that as stubborn as I am, and as willing as I am to sometimes pick a fight, there are some fights better left unfought, and this is something I am still learning. We all have issues and sometimes that emotional, mental, and psychological baggage can interfere with rational thinking. This is why sometimes I email one or more of you for advice before I say or do something that might be stupid. It's my check and balance system, and I thank you (suckers lol) for being a part of it. Luckily I have a wonderful man in my life that understands my baggage (though he's still figuring some of it out) and loves me enough to work with me to empty out that suitcase. I can't thank him enough, try as I might, for his patience, as we fight to keep the walls from coming up every time one of the triggers find their way. Even the wrong tone of a "no" can send my walls up sky-high, and I wish I could throw
them back down just as fast, but it doesn't work that way. I've been told many a time I need professional help, I just sigh. All I ever needed was someone that loved me and had a patient heart of gold. Love and patience cures much more than any stranger could. No offense to psychologists, I'm actually happy to say I grew up around one who was more a friend than anything. I just find most of them to be full of BS and I'm not about to go wasting time and money to find one that isn't when I got all the emotional support I need right at home and here on my blog.
So here's my early Valentine's present to all of you, my faithful friends and readers... THANK YOU! To all of you, big hugs and thanks from my (cold and wet) corner of the world to yours.