The Beginning and the End

I don't know where we'll go from here, as Nimbus was the most easily and often photographed cat, as he was so photogenic, but we'll find a way I guess. This apartment is so empty without my baby boy, but at the same time, the whole atmosphere is lighter now that his suffering is over.
While the world may not see tears, no one can see the rivers of tears my soul is still shedding for the young life that fought so hard, so valliantly, so bravely, and without much of a complaint at all being so rudely and promptly taken from me. I would've gone to the ends of the world for that boy, and while I know I did everything humanly possible to save him, I also know that his suffering was just too much. Even IF there had been a way to save him, at what cost would it have come?
I want to take this moment to thank Mr. Cat for coming right home Thursday and for reassuring me that I had done everything possible for OUR baby boy. I will never forget the first time Mr. Cat met Nimbus as a tiny little kitten... and how, on the trip to Ohio, he wet a napkin corner and let Nimbus "nurse" off of that to make sure he had some fluids in him (as Jadzia, at that time, was still having nursing issues from being so young herself). Nor will I forget Mr. Cat's "whatever it costs" attitude when Nimbus almost died 5 years ago... We both gave everything to the baby and we don't regret one bit of it.
This is truly the end of an era, one I wasn't expecting to end anytime soon, and for which words still evade me so. Luckily I've had awesome friends and an AWESOME support from the home front. Mr. Cat's brother has been just as awesome as Mr. Cat - I swear it must be in the blood MOL. There aren't enough thank you's out there for them and my dear @chloetoby and @shadowwhiskee who have been so awesome through this. Shadow, I know u tried so hard, pulling every string you could find out of the innernets, and your reaction when I told you that it was Nimbus' time said it all. and Chloe, you saw me through so many tears... THANK YOU. Most people can't deal with that level of grief. Thanks.